Missing YOU.......

Miss... Miss... I miss u.... Missing u... After spending almost 1 yr here.... I'm starting to feel like i'm leaving behind everything back in my hometown... I feel like i thrown a lot of effort into my matric life... I din know i was so far behind abt the things tat happened to my frens in my hometown...

I dono whether i can catch up with u guys anot lo... N i hope u guys can lend me a hand to help me catch up with u guys...

Talking abt leaving... I'm gonna leave matric soon... I dono wat will life b after matric... My future is uncertain now... Future abt everything is uncertain... At 1st i tot matric life is boring, n i admit life here was boring at 1st.. When i got the hang of it n life starts to get interesting, everything is coming to an end...3days2nights left... So little time yet so much things to do... I really have a lot of things to do right now but i dono whether i have the time n chance to do it... Time is running out... Why i fall now? Why i cant control the burning sensation? I reli everything will turn out fine between us...

N i have to admit another thing... Life is different with u... It reli is... I dono how it makes the difference but it really is different... It's like challenges coming at me with tough obstacle courses in the package n i have to face them with a strong heart n will... And also sometimes i broke down but i stood up again... Sometimes i'm afraid to face it but u made me stronger n made me more confident in my decisions... If u read tis i hope u will know tat i'm referring to u... I'm gonna miss u dearly after life here ends...

And also, pls take good care of urself... I know i din do much to take care of u but i tried my best n i did wat i can to take care of u... Sometimes i know wat i did was not enough, but i hope these little things can b meaningful as it is very meaningful to me... I enjoy spending time with u n i admit, i ask u to study with me actually the main point is not study, i jz wanna see u... Talk to u... Look at ur smile... It really warms my heart... I also hope tat we will keep in touch after this life ends...we may have our own life to live, but do think of me once in a while... K?



With lots of love,
Tyler LMZ

Untitled....

Bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla..... Playing with my blog... Bla bla bla...


:P


By,
Tyler LMZ

The most embarrassing moment..

I jz had 1 hell of a nite... I din know tat this could go to thr... Internet is really linked...

Changes... Changes.... Life changes.... I'm goin to take things seriously now... No means no...


By,
Tyler LMZ

Kiss Goodbye

I did smtg tat i'll regret for my whole fucking life.... I did smtg so stupid tat i let my parents, my bro n myself down.... I dono wat happened to me... I was so panic n my mind went blank.... It blanked jz like tat....... T.T

I fucked my bio..... I FUCKED it big time...!!!!

I'm sorry mom n dad... I sorry bro.......

I'm sorry......

My Irony Post

i have a lot of things in my mind... i jz dono how to blurt it out.... i dono how to start and how to end.... haiz.... welll no matter how i still have to blurt it out....

.


i told myself jz to like her as a fren or maybe more than a friend... but then i fell for her unconditionally.... i dont want all these... exam is jz less than 1 week away... i don wan to b like tat.... haiz....

talking abt exam.... my bio is zero in my head.... i dono how m i goin to b in the exam hall answering the questions....haiz... i dono im doin the right thing anot lo... ppl used to say do what u like the most... and i don think im doin wat i like... i wanted to go into the medical field bcoz of the economy nowadays... human still get sick no matter how bad the economy is.... i do all these is for my future family... i jz wanna put food on my family's dining table.... i don think i like bio... im jz fighting my way thru...... im falling asleep everytime the bio book is open.... wat the FUCK man.......haiz.... m i doin the rite thing?????

m i doing the right thing again??? put others as top priority.. thinking of others 1st... the girl i'll meet in the future, my kids' stomach...haiz... m i thinking too much for the future??? FUCK!!!


i don like this shit..... im in shit... haiz... but i will emerge from this shit glorious, victorious.... i m goin to go against all odd for my future, the lucky girl whom i'll love in the future and my kids and their future... i will supply my family with all i got... my parents too... they sacrificed so much for me..... their love will nvr be repaid.... all i can do is to let them enjoy their golden years happily... i love you mom n dad.... i LOVE you VERY VERY VERY MUCH....


Tyler Lee Ming Zhe.... you can do it... you can shut everything down!!!!!! fight on!!!!!


btw... SNSD have a new album released....Run Devil Run... they are getting more n more gorgeous..... WOW!!!!
Anime Version of them... hahaha.... brilliant eh??






By,
Tyler LMZ

I actually typed a bunch of things but opera mini disappeared it... Fuck!! Fine.... Tis is wat u guys will read....

Something to share.. But pls don't get angry..

i was running thru a few pix and i found these....

They really made me ROFL, LOL, LMAO, LMFAO, etc.....


check this...

funny!!!


Rooney fetching Ferguson for a ride...

well that's all...

and also my favourites...

Great player...^^


Even though they are struggling with draws and losses, they are still in my heart...


LIVERPOOL LIVES ON!!!!

By,
Dust

i wake up int the morning.... Or Noon... ^^

i woke up 2day..

look into the mirror...


i saw this...




Who styled my hair when i was asleep????



By
Dust.

Make SNSD HOT!!!!!

This video rocked my soul off... made me forget abt my problems... haha!!!

Keep me up all night dancing.... 소원을 말해봐 (sexy remix version)!!!


here you go...





credits : CodeMonmonForever

hahaha....

they made me dance with them....ahhh....


By,
Dust

wada toot~~~~!!!!!

she said i don understand her well... but i can say no 1 understands her btr than i do.. she said her frens are so good to back her up....i'm backing her up but she din notice... kids are always like 横冲直撞..haiz... wat do her frens know abt life?? jz freshies coming out after SPM and trying to act tough and they are so good at it but in actual fact, they aren't...they are just a bunch of green horns.. haiz.. i wonder wat if they get into a real deep shit n they still 横冲直撞 to find solution... haiz... i pity them...but.. it is also a god experience for them to learn..haha...well... i shudn't even wonder.. why waste neurons jz thinking of that thing... might as well waste my neurons on Kpop... hahahaha!!!!


Oh ya... Thanx to Mr. Black Shark for helping me drill smtg into her skull eventhough she din accept it very well.. u done a good 1... thanx dude... hahaha!!!! so cool man....


that's all...

By,
Dust

Unevitable response..

welll... i expected her reply will be a negative 1 and saying that her parents let n agree... well in my opinion, that is so lame... i'm not asking for pity or wat.. i'm jz worried... why don't ppl jz think about the correct things.. i shud have jz close one eye n let her be... i shud have listen to my bro...

well... wat can i say... 好心没好报...haiz...

and to some guys out thr... is [......] smtg tat is so offensive??? did it stepped on ur toe?? u guys are so immature... i was just talking to her... and u guys barged in and start whining like a lil puppy who wants pedigree out of meal time... don u guys feel pathetic?? i shud feel sad for myself to reply those comment... made me as immature as u... i wont do tat again... i swear from the bottom of my heart... whenever i see a dog whining or any boy hu r so immature, i might jz keep my silence.. "silence is virtue" says the old ppl... they are rite....

whatever.... jz keep myself away from those stray dogs b4 i start acting like them....

tat's al... if those stray dogs accidentally click on my blog, i hope they don start whining here too..haha... that's all... chiaoz....


Damn!!! i feel so good....

by,
Dust

Disappointed but cant do a thing.......

i don't know what i can do to save her...

she can call me old fashioned, not following up with the trend.. but thinking wisely is not a trend, is a must do thing... drinking and getting drunk.... is it cool??????? fuck it...!!!! get drunk n u might tear something u preserved for so long.....


i can only advice you... take it or not... up 2 u.... anyhow i'm jz a speck of dust....


i might as well jz bo peep bo peep myself and forget about these disappointments......






credits : KpopAmberSeason01




credits : diademsubs
By,
Dust

can you feel my heartbeat???

listen to my heartbeat... but i don't think u can hear it anymore.....










haiz... can she hear it????



by,
Dust

[Continuation]It's Time Nanami....or shud i say....Ming Zhe??

thanx for the things tat u've done... thanx for the NANAMI u gave me... thanx for everything we gone thru.... now i have just 1 request... FUCK ME OUT OF YOUR LIFE!!!!!!

Wait..... you already did...

and i don think u will read these...

THANK YOU!!!!!



By,

Dust

It's Time Nanami....or shud i say....Ming Zhe??

Days gone...
Time flew...
Memories gathered...
Confusions arose...

All these are like chain reaction.. one comes after the other goes... when it reaches confusion, we don't know what will be best for us... but somehow, it will still be a decision for that chain reaction to end...

this is my confusion part..

1st...I wanted to wait for her but i kept pushing her away bcoz i don wan her to get hurt..she is facing one of her biggest challenge in her life n i don wanna burden her... in the end, she got the wrong concept n tot i didn't want to wait for her... i love her so much until i had to make tat decision... now i have to live on with my mistake...i wanted to ask her out on her bday, but i don think tat will be possible anymore... she is happy with him, so i wish them all the best in the future and may love be thr with them...

2nd...I met her...could i say i was mesmerized by her behaviour? or do i jz wanna look for a rebound? well.. no matter wat i do i'll jz end up hurting her... we'll part when april comes... i din have the guts to tell her how i feel... and ended up losing another 1... i got something i wanna say to her," pls appreciate the love you have. it doesn't come without a reason.."

now the real deal....
i fucked myself up... BIG TIME!!!! for my followers of this blog, i said i wanna get 4.0... but i ended up in 3.77...for those who understands pointer, 3.77 and 4.0 is a vast difference... damn... is it i didn't study hard enuff or the marker who marked my paper made a mistake?? well, i shud start with the man in the mirror.. i didn't study hard enuff... i suck!!!

haiz...

my life is really in a big big mess... and to my frens hu are studying in form 6 or those hu are hurt by my words, i'm so so sorry...i'm jz so frustrated and i start to throw knives at you guys... i'm so so in fault... scold me if you want.. u can even beat me up... i'm fine with it... make my life even messier...

i also dono why i write all these stuff when no one reads it... especially those ppl whom i mentioned. haiz... i'm really really so fuck!!!!!!

after matriculation is done, i wanna find a quiet spot where nobody will find me so tat i can some peace alone... if possible, i wanna leave this place and leave this miserable life... i'm jz nothing but a speck of dust in a big world like this.. no matter what i do, how high i go, how good i get, how far i jump, how fast i run, how smart i m, how brilliant my ideas are, i'm jz a nobody..............


nobody......................


fuck me, will ya??