Heartbreak......

My first Emo blog... At last i broke my principles..."don't be EMO"... i'm now.....

How many times can i break till i shatter???
well....countless times.... everytime i crack,i try to mend it back...now this time....i'm reli shattered.... i thought i can mend it back...i'm done....so done.....

i just said to myself not to break my own heart 1 more time...but still have to break...i just don understand why ppl just can't make my life easy...parents....pressure....girl....pressure....work.....manager gif stupid reasons....

C'mon la!!!! i just wan a free n happy after-SPM-life....have fun wit frens...and have a smooth road with her.....but....why these juz can't happen....

i thought i can give her everything...but..i can't..i thought i took off the pressure on her shoulders...but....i'm adding more....haiz......i thought i'm giving her space..but...i'm suffocating her...i thought making her happy,but in actual fact,i'm pissing her off....i thought she can live her life..but i'm obstructing her....i'm making her worse...i'm such a loser....sore loser......i will not pull her back anymore....

I wanna hold on i wanna keep moving on.....but......ppl kip wanting more...why is human so greedy?? they are always not enough for the things they get...they keep asking for more....c'mon la...i'm not Clark Kent or Bruce Banner or Peter Parker...i'm not Tony Stark and not Chris Brown.... i'm not SUPERHUMAN...... c'mon......

i'm broke,i'm heart-broke.....wat the @#$% man..... All i can do now is sleep,wake up,eat,play com,play ps2,bathe eat n sleep...sometimes lepak with friends....but now my friends are busy working....and some are so f 'ed up...

i just don understand my tears just can't fall anymore....i usually cry like a baby when this situation occurs...but i'm not crying....why?? haiz.....the night will be very very very loooonnnnggggg tonight...... *sigh* Go through it ba.....

...................................................i'm no more a gentleman...i can't even obey the first rule: do not lose your head... and i'm losing it now....