Who Am I?

At last,

after months of rotting at home,

i finally had a thought of my own life...

looking back my whole life from the day i can remember things,

i bravely admit,

i had done nothing for my life...

there are no stories worth telling in my life...

there are no colours in my life...

there are no perfection in my life...

ya, human aren't perfect...

but at least, there should be some perfection...

i had done nothing great,

i had done nothing wonderful,

i had done nothing that i'm proud of,

i had done nothing at ALL~~~~

all these while i'd been lazing around wasting precious time n wasting precious air n wasting precious space n wasting precious energy...

there is nothing proud i can show the world...

And seriously,

i never made my parents proud before...

everytime, i have to hear,

"Nevermind la... you can do better next time..."

"it's ok... it is the past.. try to aim better n hit your target..."

and the worst is,

"Aiya, we are used to it... Since when u had been perfect? hahaha!"

although they said it with a nice tone with no cynical means, but it pierce through that little soul of mine...

I really had never heard them say,

"Wow!! So good!!"

"Well done!!"

"That's my boy!!"

don't get me wrong,

they never said those to me b4 doesn't mean they don care about me,

they never said those is because

I DON'T DESERVE IT...

Never once i had a perfect score or a perfect hit or a perfect match....

i always end up failing....

Mom, Dad, Im so sorry..........

I wanted to say "i promise i will never disappoint you again.."

but i can't say that because it will jz be another empty promise....

i'm worthless...

i have no determination, no self esteem, no guts, no power, no charisma, no strength, no precision, no faith, no results, no looks, no useful knowledge, no wisdom, no wit, no brains, and the list goes on and on and on and on and on~~~~~~~~

Most important is,

I lost my confidence....

=(

to those who read this,

Don't comment, don't say anything and don't do anything...

jz keep those words to urself...

and don't be the person i am now...

because you wouldn't want to see disappointment in your parents' eyes...

that look will never wipe off from your memory...

it will only haunt you for the rest of your life...

Tyler LMZ

What's Wrong?

i feel tat my rights are being violated..

i don have the rights to speak out what is in my mind...

every time i speak out, everybody will be so angry n so frustrated bcoz i had said out the truth n it hurts...

when i don speak out, everybody will start to step on my head as if im not thr...

frustrated! Tired!

eventhough im right, but im always wrong...

Fuck the world man!!!!

=S

i'll be there~~

I'm here... always here...


just let me know,


i'll rocket my way to u~~

TylerLMZ

Kop!!

9 goal spree in Malaysia...

they can play better but they seem more like having fun than playing seriously on the pitch...

more to come and i wish all the best in the upcoming season...

=)

Liverpool, you will never walk alone!

TylerLMZ

Malaysia in chaos~~

Bless Malaysia~~

hopefully there wont be too much trouble...


pray hard~~


Tyler LMZ

Thanx Michael Jackson... =D

Thanx to him, made me feel better after that "Dream"~~~


^^



Tyler LMZ

(@_@ )

stop BOTHERING me la!!!! I want to SLEEP!!!!!


Get Lost....


Dumb thoughts~~~


T.T


TylerLMZ

Small Little Update

It's been a while since i last updated my blog...

it was b4 i went to my trip at kedah...


well... the trip was fun.. lots of exciting things happened... reli enjoyed it...
10 days passed jz like tat...it passed quite fast too...
i learnt lots n gain lots of experience...


thanx to all tat is in the trip...


jz a small post to update u all... n im welcoming my baby soon... don worry, i did not make any girl pregnant or wat... hahaha xD don be misled...


kinda happy now... =D


n i'd made my mind on some things.. i had to put my feet down n make the right choice n do the right thing...


im sorry for the ppl i'd hurt when i made my decision... but i got no choice... thank you~~ =)


n lastly, im worried abt my future n all the obstacles waiting upfront... it's been haunting me every night b4 i go to bed... the obstacles which are actually not a problem became a humongous problem to me n my future... =/ but nobody will walk my road except me..........


arghh, jz venting out some of my thoughts in my head... that's all...


=) smile!!!




TylerLMZ

seems like im still not...

seems like


im still


strange~~~


i really hope....


well don hope...


always end in disappointments~~



TylerLMZ

Baby Im So Lonely~~~~

( -.-)

sometimes i look at it,


i wonder....


was it me?


hmmm~~~


Tyler LMZ

Uncertainties

Rolling on my bed... roll n roll n roll... jz cant sleep after counting 585 sheeps(serious).... haihz~~~


all the thoughts are wandering in my head....




am i on the right track?

What really happened?

is it real?



how nice if i can turn back n start it all over again...

this is the cruel world..

mistakes made cannot be rewound n redo....



time will only fly forward...

it never stops or rewind just for you~~~ this is the only fairness of the world (by somebody's somebody =P btw, nice quote.. ^^)




speaking of fairness..

is it fair...

hmm~~ never compare...





It is been so hard these few days... keep thinking of what should i do next?

i'd been rectifying this problem for such a long time, but it turned out not rectified but worsen...




but im happy to say, I'm LUCKY to have you...

supported me all the way...

gave me hope n strength...

touched me deep enough to unleash my ice-cold tears...

it's been a while since i last cried until u did so...

tears of joy for your info... =D




Thank you... thank you very much...

i will do my best n will never let you, you n you down.... again~~~

FIGHT ON, LEE MING ZHE!!!!

Taengoo POWER!!! VITA500~~

Tyler LMZ

X_X

I'm officially dead...


Someone pls cock a gun n put the bullet straight thru my brain...


Thanx...

Life's A Puzzle

Life is a puzzle...


we build our lives like putting puzzle pieces together....


every piece is vital to complete the whole picture...


every piece have to be precise to fit into every space to form a nice complete picture....


when building the whole puzzle n found out a very important piece is missing,


search around for the piece that fits the final space....


the feeling sucks when the picture isn't complete....


It sucks even more when the missing piece found don't fit at all....


is it me that don't know how to fit it in?


or


is it that founded piece a wrong piece for the picture?


*sighs*



tired~~~~~~~


will you fit into it?


TylerLMZ

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2day, Parents watch POC.... i watched dy.. but have to wait for them to go for dinner.. so here i am... wating at Coffee Bean, AEON Bandaraya Melaka...


ppl walked past the cafe, their eyes, looked at me whenever they passed by, made me a bit shy... maybe they weren't looking at me.. xD well whatever... hahaha

Mocha Ice blended... YUCKSS!!!!! not even a quarter cup and i don feel like finishing it.... >< What the hell... Starbucks is so much better... now i feel my tummy got a funny feeling... shud have ordered green apple tea instead... well... what to do, have to wait for parents...

Im so bad, let u all read my complaints.. ok let me share a story here..

when i was walking down AEON Bandaraya Melaka, suddenly a girl around 160cm approach me..

"hey, i think i saw u b4.. u study in UKM KKL rite?"
"Yeah... how u know? wait, do i know you?"
"No, i recognised u by ur shirt... N i saw u b4 in KTSN... 交流日..."(i was wearing 敦华 shirt)

In my heart i was thinking : miss, i so lowprofile n appear so little during that day n u can recognise me?

then i replied her
"oh... how sure are u that u reli know who i am?"
"i know la... ur hair long long in front, now short liao..."

== u don even know who m i n now my hair short u can still recognise me... 佩服佩服~~~

i was getting a liitle scared n she intro herself only i know..
well, i never encounter this kind of situation b4.. a bit freaked out...

after exchanging a few words n info, she said
"k la, i got to go... see u around, tyler.."
"oh bye bye.."

she walked off... n i still in shocked state.. now oso still in tat state... xD


well, 1st time... @_@


20 mins passed...

A couple sitting beside me is arguing... well, break up la~~ xD
"ur father shudn't marry ur mom n give birth u..."
what the hell is the guy talking... motherf**k!!! how can u talk like tat to a girl?!
haih~~~ another not gentleman...

well don wan that to spoil my mood~~ xD
continue to online in coffee bean... but they are distracting me.... argh!!!! >< spoil my day~~~

That's all!!! xD enjoy ur day~~

Wanted to upload a few pix but my com's bluetooth device is not working properly so wait next post la... xD take good care of urselves~~~



Cheers!!!
TylerLMZ